9/11 Remembered
I am unable to pin down my feelings about the 9/11 Memorial
Museum that opened to the public last week.
I don’t want to go just because I feel I should; I want to go to honor
the dead and to get a grip on the memory of that tragic event. I don’t know how I feel about the gift
shop. I don’t know how I would feel
about children who weren’t born yet running around the way children naturally do
while I’m trying to come to grips with how I feel. I don’t want to feel bummed out and I don’t
want to think I might not feel reverent enough.
I don’t want people eating their lunch there. Or buying key chains.
For quite a while you had to have a reserved ticket
(free) to even visit the plaza itself but now that rule has been lifted and you can
wander at will. How do I feel about
paying $24 (well, okay, $18 for seniors) to get into the museum? I’ve been in downtown Manhattan innumerable
times over the last decade and the closest I ever came to ground zero was the
Century 21 discount clothing store on Church St. or driving past the excavation
site on the Westside Highway. I always
felt protected by the tall fence that stood between me and my feelings. But that barrier is gone now. At least I’m thinking about it and my
head is out of that particular sand.
But, you know what? I still can’t
really put into words how I feel or, worse, don’t feel.